So, I am really going to do this now.

I have a really hard time keeping up with this, huh?
This is going to be kept up. I mean it.

I have been thinking about my life alot lately.
Where it's going.
Where I want to go with it.
What I am going to do.
How I am going to do it.
It's really bugging me, because I want it all to happen so much faster than it actually is.
Sometimes it feels like it isn't happening at all.
I want to move out of my house, I hate still living at home, it makes me feel somewhat pathetic.
But I can't move out because I don't have the money to do so.
Money is a bitch.
I wish money wasn't an issue, I am trying to mold my life to the point where I don't need to rely on money lately.
I am trying to have a more open minded way of seeing things.
I am going to travel more, just drive places.
I am going to try to travel to California this summer, if school doesn't interfere.

I am on the computer alot more, I am networking.
I am lined up to start making designs for clothing for an old classmate from high school, I really think it is going to kick off.
I love the internet and hate it at the same time.
While networking I meet the most amazing people, but I have a really hard time meeting them, because... They are halfway across the country, world, or whatever.
I could meet the most amazing girl, which I think I have, and never see her.
It really depresses me.
But then I use the internet to make people happy with my artwork, which makes me feel good also.

I am tired of my life here, I want to get away.
I want to start over.
I want to make new friends, I love mine don't get me wrong, but I feel like I get used or get nothing from our friendship.
It feels one sided most of the time.
I came across a blog that hit a little close to home: http://www.stwing.upenn.edu/~jenf/writing/rant04.html
I hope you read that. Really I do.
I am trying new things lately, and listening to new music also.
I am going to get a tattoo, even though I am terrified of needles.
It is HTML code for "Begin Love, End Hate".
I am excited, and very nervous at the same time.

I don't have much more to rant or complain about right now, but next time, I will.
I will actually keep this thing updated.
I'm for serious.


Random fact: Low carb and Calorie alcohol is just disgusting.